Trying to remember..

Trying to remember what I know once was—

Life was not heavy, things weren’t wrong.

It didn’t even strike me that I needed to be strong

Trying to remember when such things as this were not

The centre of thought.

Trying to remember when love was stronger than fears

Laughter louder than tears

Anticipation outweighed regrets

And I could forget

The dark things that happened.

Trying to remember when I knew that I could,

Had no doubt that I would.

And that if I didn’t, I’d not be crying

Because, by gum, I’d had fun trying.

But I can’t find those memories

I can’t, I don’t, I won’t, not sure...

I wonder if those days just never were.