Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Top 5 things I learned today

You’d think at my age, I’d know it all...

Top 5 things I learned today:

  1. From direct personal experience I learned that mosquitoes will bite right through the material used in Yoga pants and tops.
  2. While my 60-minute walk is as good for me as three 20-minute walks in a week, my weekly one-hour weight training session is not as good for me as three 20-minute sessions.  NOTE TO SELF: change daily routine. 
  3. When Dr. Lissa Rankin, author of Mind Over Medicine asked her patients what they needed to heal, they did not answer opium, operations or even medical marijuana. They told her they needed things like a divorce, a new job, or coming out of the closet to their parents.  What do you need to heal? 
  4. What I need in order to heal is to start writing again. 
  5. Sperm counts have declined by more than half in Western men.  TOP 5 Things... is brought to you by THE TRAZ, Book 1 in the BackTracker Series
Bikers vs Cops on the Canadian prairie--oh, and throw in a 13-year old girl.

Eileen Schuh, Author
Schrödinger's Cat
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Friday, April 14, 2017

The Crazy Game...What might have been...
The Crazy Game is an autobiography written by the Canadian hockey goalie, Clint Malarchuk. He was a very successful player in the NHL for over ten years during the hay days of the eighties and nineties and a goalie coach for many years following. He is most noted for taking a slash across from his neck from a skate that almost ended not only his career but his life. 
The book has enough in it about hockey to satisfied the avid sports fan but most fascinating is reading about the emotional and psychological turmoil with which Malarchuk dealt. His undiagnosed and untreated mental health problems coloured every aspect of his life.

He is now a professional speaker and an advocate for those with mental health issues.

I wrote him a fan letter:

Dear Clint Malarchuk,

Your book, The Crazy Game was our Book Club selection for February and I wanted to let you know how much I enjoyed your story. Reading about the game and players as they were in those glory years was fun.

As a former psychiatric nurse and a fellow sufferer of depression, I must commend you on your excellent portrayal of your emotional experiences. How brave of you to share those secrets in such a public forum.

You mentioned in your book that writing your story triggered your anxieties. Likewise, I often get depressed when reading depressing books. However, in The Crazy Game you so fiercely owned your problems that they remained yours and not mine. I found myself rooting for you, rather than wallowing with you, and that made it an uplifting and encouraging experience.

You are right that we must open up, accept, and treat mental and emotional illnesses more effectively. 

Just as you pondered near the conclusion of you autobiography what might have been had you not suffered from mental illness, I have pondered similarly. If I’d not been abused as a child, would I have suffered from depression? Would I have been a much better mother? Would I have been a great writer, rather than a good one?

Then by chance I watched an interview with Gord Thibodeau, the winningest coach in the Alberta Junior Hockey League, who four times has battled cancer. He says in the interview when asked if he could, would he change anything about his life,  “I wouldn’t change a thing, cancer and all.  It is who I am. It defines who I am. It’s the reason I’m able to impart certain things, because of that history.  It is part of what shapes your outlook and your culture as a coach.”

His words convinced me to adapt that philosophy when considering my past misfortunes. Rather than feeling burdened by them and cheated by them, I accept that the depression, the anxiety, the betrayal and is who I am and has shaped me as a mother, wife, author. All is well with my world and I'd not change a thing.

I wish you the best.

ps Here is a link to that interview:


I truly do believe we ought to quit thinking, 'What if...?' and 'If only..' and realizes how strong and courageous and wonderful we are to have made it past our challenges. We must focus on our superb accomplishments. We must feel exhilerated that we faced the devil and won! That despite it all we survived and went on to become an inspiration to others.

It's taken me many decades to get to this point of understanding. Perhaps that's what my characters in my BackTracker series are tying to tell me (I always get asked why the heck I wrote about biker gangs and drugs and such when my life is far-removed from all things criminal and I don't know the answer).

The BackTracker characters are haunted by their pasts. In book after book in the series we find them seeking resolution, seeking forgiveness, wishing to change the unchangeable past. Dreaming of reconciliation--all the while putting their lives on the limb to save the world from the worst criminals imaginable. Well, I haven't quite become that amazing, I have done not too bad.

 Malarchuk did reply to my fan mail, thanking me for my thoughts.

The Crazy Game, What might have been... is brought to you by THE TRAZ Second Edition. 

 Eileen Schuh, Author


Schrӧdinger's Cat

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Introducing 2nd Edition of THE TRAZ

Wow! Doesn't that cover look great? I'm very proud to announce the release of the Second Edition of THE TRAZ, complete with fresh material, revisions and a spanking new cover!

It's the same awesome story--a biker gang, an undercover cop, a thirteen-year old girl--and a murder on the vast Canadian prairie. It's just told a wee bit better as I showboat my evolving writing skills.

Katrina is thirteen, grieving and alone. But she’s much more than that. She’s intelligent, wealthy and intrigued by the dangers of street life.
Shrug is a giant of a man with a voice of thunder and eyes of granite. He sports a tangle of tattoos, wears gang colours and straddles a Harley.
When he asks Katrina if she wants a ride, neither realizes her decision will haunt them both forever.
Life on The Traz biker compound is violent and horrifying and the price of belonging quickly becomes too steep. But for Katrina there is no way to escape until she meets Chad—an undercover cop with rich brown eyes, a gentle chuckle and a plan to get her safely out of the clutches of the gang. However, there’s a problem.
Someone is keeping dangerous secrets from them both.
 Eileen Schuh, Author


Schrӧdinger's Cat

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Finding a father--CRAWDAD by Lisa T. Cresswell

What a great way to start off the New Year--with a chance to win a book, of course!

Author, Lisa T. Cresswell, is introducing us to her gut-wrenching young adult novel, CRAWDAD.  You'll find the Rafflecopter entry form to win a copy of this new release at the bottom of this post.

All the best to you and yours in 2017!

Welcome to the Crawdad Book Blog Tour!

For the whole month of January, my new contemporary young adult novel Crawdad, will be featured on the blogs of some of my besties - authors and book bloggers who support the readers and writers of  diverse YA - and I couldn't be more pleased. I hope you can visit them all and enter the giveaway.  Here's the schedule:

Magic of the Muses - Eileen Schuh January 1
Rich in Variety January 8
Beth Fehlbaum Books January 15
CJ Burright January 22
Twinjas Book Reviews January 29

~About the Book~

Seventeen-year-old Jamil Ramos grew up on Alabama’s Gulf Coast believing his mom, Loretta, was his only living relative. She put a trumpet in his hands as a toddler and sparked his love of jazz. But when Loretta drops a bomb on Jamil from her deathbed- she’s not his mama and his daddy is still alive, living in Charleston, S.C. – his world is turned upside down.

Now, with the only mama he’s ever known gone and the Loyola University trumpet audition less than a week away, Jamil has trouble feeling his music. When his band teacher tells him to get it together, Jamil decides to hitchhike to South Carolina over to find his father and get his questions answered. All he has is a name –Leon Ramos.

Jamil relies on the kindness of the strangers he meets-a gay teen kicked out of his home, a runaway prostitute, and a street musician-as he makes his way across Florida and Georgia trying to avoid the cops along the way. But when Jamil is robbed of his most prized possession, his trumpet, his plans go anywhere but where he’d hoped. That trumpet was supposed to be his ticket for a scholarship, the only way to college his mama could give him. Lost and alone without it, Jamil wonders if finding his father is worth risking his future.

You can find Crawdad in print and e-book on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Goodreads!

~About the Author~

Lisa T. Cresswell has been writing middle grade and young adult books for what seems like a mighty long time. She can never seem to make up her mind if she likes reality or fantasy, so she writes both. She also likes lemon jasmine green tea, dark chocolate almonds, and lots and lots of coffee. And of course, BOOKS. ALL THE BOOKS!! You can see all of her work at 

~Enter the Giveaway~

Enter to win one of three copies of Crawdad to be given away in January!

a Rafflecopter giveaway

Finding a father...CRAWDAD has been brought to you by 

 "Then unspeakable tragedy strikes..."

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" I was inexorably drawn in to this dark and claustrophobic world of coercion, mysterious antagonisms and deep mistrust..."

Eileen Schuh, Author

Schrӧdinger's Cat

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Donald Trump and I

It's a strange dream.

I have been called into President-elect Donald Trump's office. He is trying to recruit me to work computer security for his administration.

I'm struck by his soft voice and respectful mannerisms, a stark contrast to the media portrayal of him that we'd been bombarded with for a year.

In my dream, I am of course not me, but Katrina Buckhold, the protagonist of my BackTracker series.

I decline his job offer, telling him he can't afford me. I say this to antagonize him because he is of course very proud of how wealthy and powerful he is. As Katrina, though, I am wealthy and powerful as well, having inherited millions from my parents' life insurance and having invested it both wisely, as of late, and in the lucrative cocaine market during my year with The Traz biker gang,

This wealth plus the fact I am the top techie in the world makes me at least on par with Trump in the power department.

"If you don't believe me, google it," I tell him, walking out.

It's not that Trump can't afford me. These days I usually work for free, my payment being the joy I get from doing great things that no one else can do.  I'm just letting him know I can't be bought.

I meet up with President Obama down the hall. I am apparently working for him as a Public Relations person.  I tell him there is no fricken way I'm working for Trump, that I gave up my career in computers for valid reasons and have no desire to return to it. I enjoy my PR job.

Obama gives me a knowing smile and I realize that although I have no inclination to work for Donald or with computers, I will end up doing so, for reasons I can't fathom but ones which Obama seems to know. It strikes me that the President is the one who referred me to Trump.

I'm quite curious as to what is going to happen to change my mind. It will have to be something quite extraordinary.

Then the dogs wake me up.

I hate it when dreams end that way...

Donald Trump and I has been brought to you by:

Book 4 in the BackTracker Series

"I was inexorably drawn into this dark and claustrophobic world of coercion, mysterious antagonisms and deep mistrust." ~Gilli Allan, author of Fly or Fall

Eileen Schuh, Author

Schrӧdinger's Cat